“No Hecubus, no Cheque-ubus”
How are you coping with things these days?
I kind of ignore things that maybe I shouldn’t while not ignoring things I should.
Or anything else you want to talk about?
Pit of Darkness [NOT 21/12/24]
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everything copacetic on my end
if anything i find myself disappointed in how badly everyones fucking up the fucking up
like….if youre gonna do it….at least get your shit together
but no…..thats too much to ask for
but you know…theres fuck all i can do about it… soo wheres the cheese and the good booze?
That’s good.
I’m usually like that, but well, it’s been a year.
We bought the car we were looking at. I feel better having that done since who knows what’s going to happen with supply chains and trade wars and what that does to car prices and availability, and I’d rather have reliable new transportation than an old car with a creaky suspension that made a weird sound out of one of the wheels.
Smart and considering that almost half the parts come from Canada or Mexico… will be a bargain if Veep Trump blows up the Free Trade agreements.
I’ve had problems with binge eating for most of my life. And then there’s the shame cycle of ope can’t stop eating gonna eat until I feel sick wow what is wrong me with me why don’t have any self-control here… etc etc.
So anyways, about 6 months ago my thyroid went to shit, and after about 10 weeks on thyroid medicine, the uncontrollable binging urges are basically gone. I can’t even describe how surreal it is to feel *normal* here. And the annoying part is my annual bloodwork has never shown issues, it was only after it went off the rails and I got referred to a specialist that we’re now looking at other values besides just the 2 or so on the regular bloodwork panel.
I’m not binge eating my feelings anymore, which is just fascinating to me. But also not having the stress over trying not to eat, failing, overeating, and shame and frustration? I’m coping surprisingly well with the bullshit that is reality because I don’t have my internal issues compounding things.
I’m not really losing any weight, you know because why would that conveniently happen. Ah well, c’est la vie.
The thyroid/brain chemistry is a tricky thing. Everyone is different, but it is hard for people to understand that and they assume that the solutions for them is the same for everyone (and been guilty of that too.)
Hopefully things work out there.
It kind of goes to show how easily certain stuff can be overlooked. People know something is going on, but doctors can’t always see it in the numbers unless they’ve seen exactly that before.
Well, today’s the start of approximately two weeks of time off for me, so I imagine that’ll help at least somewhat. (My mom almost couldn’t comprehend why I’d possibly need a break that long, but my therapist gave me no pushback whatsoever.)
Two weeks off sounds wonderful! Congrats!
Everyone needs recharge time even if mom doesn’t think so (my mom would think the same way so I understand.)
I’m not ignoring what’s going on, but as I’ve mentioned in other posts, I’m concentrating on things I can control or at least positively affect. It’s keeping me sane. I’m going to have to do a lot of that over the next 4 years.